I must admit, I can't stop crying.
Everything makes me tear up.
I know people can see the tears forming in my eyes as I struggle so hard to repress them.
Wednesday was another cardiologist appointment.
It's amazing how meeting with doctors and nurses becomes second nature.
You begin to feel at home with the medical staff a family.
Which they are.
They will be there as Eslea grows. They get to watch her develop.
They will pray for her as she needs it so.
Eslea's heart surgery has been scheduled.
It will be the end of January. Just two weeks away and one day before she turns 4 months.
We are making the preparations...trying to find a place to stay close to the medical hospital, asking off from work, packing bags, calling family...plus so much more.
As we do this, it is so important that we also spend as much time with Emma as we can. She will have to stay behind with family as we have to leave for such a long time.
For those who have experience with this surgery, I would love to read your comments and suggestions.
If you know of others who have been through this, please send them my way.
This is the scariest and most heart wrenching thing for which I have ever had to prepare.
I know that there are others who have trekked this road before me.
I find your strength amazing.
I hope I can find mine.