Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Over the Top

I am blessed. I am shoot for the stars over the top blessed.
I have a job that I love.
I have two children I adore.
I have a wonderful husband.
I have a great house.
I have a daughter with down syndrome.
Blessed. Blessed. Oh so very blessed.

When I was sitting on the beach, I again reflected on Eslea’s birth. How I was so scared at the thought of raising a child with special needs. Now, ten months later, those thoughts have been replaced with overwhelming blessings and joy. She is a joy. She is perfect. There are so many moms right now that may be receiving similar news about a "special" diagnosis. The rush of feelings and doubts will attempt to overtake your mind. I know those feelings. But to be completely honest with  you, if you are one of those moms, I’m HAPPY for you. I feel joy for you.
You are blessed.
You’re child has designer genes.
Your child is PERFECT.

Maybe it was the trip to the beach that has me reflecting so much on these blessing. Every time I visit my friend the ocean, she reminds me of the vastness of life. That we are so small. Our problems are so tiny. Our wants…so minute. Feet in the water feeling the tide pull the sand between each toe as I soak up view of the sky forever chasing the sea...blessed.
Blessed. Blessed. Blessed.


I just had to get that out. It was inside of my heart waiting to burst. Writing the words, well, it seemed a little less messy.
Okay...just one more...blessed....


(Man o' man I adore that girl.)

-erin

4 comments:

  1. Ellie has that same bathing suit!!

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  2. Love the "perfect" picture. Beautiful, sweet little girl!

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  3. made cry happy tears!! and I LOVE the last pix of sweet Eslea...to stink'n cute! it is so amazing to me how as I reflect on Maddie and how we found out, her birth everything that seemed so daunting in the beginning...has become so "normal" a learning experience a true test of our marriage and family...and that everything has become stronger and more simple in a weird way...smiles

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  4. Awww, that was really nice to read. She's a beautiful girl!

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